A Friend. A snapshot. A song. Just a few things I noticed today that make me feel happy. I dont want to see the world in such a dim light anymore.
I'm starting school again soon and it would help if I could feel inspired when I return. Alot has changed and I feel as though I need to get my act together and do something like my friends are. They either have jobs, college, or boyfriends and I will hardly see them when the summer is over. Shot gun to the lungs anyone? I still have this ideal future where we are all living together in a sweet house with our kitties and lizards and not a care in the world. But when highschool ended I felt like I was in some sort of sick dramatic sitcom where we all went our seperate ways and just dealt. I dont want to deal I want to live. Go back to our photographs, and coffee/cake birthday parties. Angry rants about society and not putting up with the worlds bullshit! I'm done with this adult lifestyle and I want to say "fuck you". I'm not longer a cog in the machine and I'm not longer your petty servant.
But I've become soft. Not seeing and losing a friend can really break a girl. But I'm putting her back together. lets go apeshit on the surgery. The seamstress is in to put this ragg doll back together. But the truth is you look better in peices.
xxXxx
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Kumiko Kensei
A new obsession. I found a show that actually explains what life is about to me. Its an anime called "nana". Who knew such a silly cartoon could actually explain what something so real and deep. I'm so tired of best friend movies and shows being about get togethers at the mall then suddently learning you have something incommon other than you all look great in designer jeans.
Its hard for me to hear people say that they dont need best friends because they have their boyfriend or family. and I'm tired of people telling me that family means everything, when I say you cant say you love someone just because you share the same genetic quality. My mother and I have nothing in common and to be honest I hate most of the bullshit that comes out of her mouth. the lack of common knowledge this town holds is ridiculous. I'm surprised me and clot havent burned down the schools or churches in this town yet. But we're better than them and we dont need fire to prove we outshine the sun.
anyway I'm getting of subject, my point is "nana" is the only media that I've seen that shows what me and clot are really about. we dont care about the little things but we dont ignore them either. What matters is that we dont act like most girls our age and we dont let the little people get us down. Even though most of us are contained right now and lost in our own dreams we know we will always be together physically and mentally. None of that bullshit about us finding better friends later on in life. . . We've already got the best and thats all we can ask for
Its hard for me to hear people say that they dont need best friends because they have their boyfriend or family. and I'm tired of people telling me that family means everything, when I say you cant say you love someone just because you share the same genetic quality. My mother and I have nothing in common and to be honest I hate most of the bullshit that comes out of her mouth. the lack of common knowledge this town holds is ridiculous. I'm surprised me and clot havent burned down the schools or churches in this town yet. But we're better than them and we dont need fire to prove we outshine the sun.
anyway I'm getting of subject, my point is "nana" is the only media that I've seen that shows what me and clot are really about. we dont care about the little things but we dont ignore them either. What matters is that we dont act like most girls our age and we dont let the little people get us down. Even though most of us are contained right now and lost in our own dreams we know we will always be together physically and mentally. None of that bullshit about us finding better friends later on in life. . . We've already got the best and thats all we can ask for
Thursday, March 25, 2010
shining stars
1st off i would like to say that I had the best fucking start to this week. The otep concert was fucking amazing! Lyric, Lexxi, and I saw six bands all together. Destrophy, through the eyes of the dead, bury your dead, and otep are the only ones I can currently remember. We managed to show up about an hour early and got to meet otep. I must say that was the highlight of my year.
It only goes down from there.
I've had the most deja vu this week then I have had in a long time. I've done nothing but whisper secret words into the dark and deleted myself from society! I need a break from this town, family, and all you motherfuckers who "defy" whats right. Yeah thats right I'm talking to you. I've had no fun at school lately, perhaps its the lack of friendships I have at school. I hate my generation, they are nothing but bitches with no common sense. Most intelectual people at my school say I'm a youngen who wouldnt possibly understand. Which is mostly true but I dont quite understand my peers either. All they talk about is boys and how lame "Bad Girls Club" was last night. Awh I'm too busy trying to find the truth behind the lies.
I just can't wait until a plane ticket is at my fingertips and I can escape to Steel Town once and for all!
Make me believe that this is all worth it!
goodnight my glittery stars
xxXxx
VV
It only goes down from there.
I've had the most deja vu this week then I have had in a long time. I've done nothing but whisper secret words into the dark and deleted myself from society! I need a break from this town, family, and all you motherfuckers who "defy" whats right. Yeah thats right I'm talking to you. I've had no fun at school lately, perhaps its the lack of friendships I have at school. I hate my generation, they are nothing but bitches with no common sense. Most intelectual people at my school say I'm a youngen who wouldnt possibly understand. Which is mostly true but I dont quite understand my peers either. All they talk about is boys and how lame "Bad Girls Club" was last night. Awh I'm too busy trying to find the truth behind the lies.
I just can't wait until a plane ticket is at my fingertips and I can escape to Steel Town once and for all!
Make me believe that this is all worth it!
goodnight my glittery stars
xxXxx
VV
Friday, March 12, 2010
... of the week
took this the other day at lyrics house with lexxi!
WARNING!! GIANT DEEZBOTROLL ON THE LOOSE!
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